December 2009
Everythings not what you think it is.
See, everyone thinks I want nothing to do withyou. Truth is, I just want you to grow up & become the man you shouldve been my whole life. I miss you a lot, I often think about you & the closer you are to getting out, the closer I get to giving in. Well see what happens tonight, but I don’t want you to ruin my night either. I may say I hate you, but I hate who everyone sees you as,...
13959.) I MISS YOU. Okay? You win.
(via blogsecret)
Here goes nothing.
I’m leaving behind a couple people, & gaining new ones. I’m leaving behind some memories in hopes of making this years better. I’m leaving behind all of the things i was ever mad at, in 2009. Because 2010 isn’t going to make itself better, I have to change what flaws I have to make it better! I’m going to continue being the happy girl I always am, & try &...
SecondTimeAround.Mp3
By lady gaga. GUH , CAN YOU SAY.. MY SONG.
fuck, i love her so damn much
2010 goals?
TATTTTOO !
re-pierce my lip
loose weight
grow confidence
find love
get thicker skin
get into AI & MOVE TO SF :D I can do it, I know so (:
Second time.
We’ve hung out .
& each time gets better & better. GAH. You left like 3 minutes ago, & I STILLLL have butterflies. Its insane. The only downer, Everytime I distance myself, I feel like everytime we talk we have to start over.. but then, i see you & TA-DA. Lol GAH, your eyes are gorgeous, YOUR GORGEOUS. Your hilarious. & you except the fact that im a little SLOW haha....
365 day project of love.
lovedee.tumblr.com
http://www.formspring.me/lovedee
Ibiprofren.
Finally kicked in. I feel WAY better.
Some insecurities of mine, "sometimes"
I feel “thick” & unattractive, like nothings special about me, so i hate when people call me beautiful. SOMETIMES, sometimes i feel like im on top of the world. I cant seem to find the healthy in between.
Sometimes, I feel like im not worth it. Thats why i haven’t found anyone.
I feel like i’ll never make it in the fashion world, Because i’m not fashionable...
I feel.
Pretty, But also like CRAAAAP ! FML :( Im excited to go to frisco. I have work tonight, Light weight excited. Idk, I hope i dont feel like this all day :(
13898.) I drive a $60,000 Lexus every day with a...
LMAO! Thats wassup(: BIGPIMPEN.
13899.) I don't know what to do anymore. Life...
(via blogsecret)
FML.
I started today :( Im going to frisco today (: & Tomorrow’s new years eve. FUCCCK, the wrong time to the fullest.
13882.) I wish I had the willpower to be...
like i used to.
(via blogsecret)
Neither do i.
I dont hate you. I just HAD to vent.. I threw a fit. True. Kind of childish, But i was mad. I started to find things myself. I got more & more mad. I couldnt sleep, which i adore my sleep. so i just got more mad. i felt like every single second of what we had, was a complete lie. I use to love you. But when i read what you said, our fa’reels last goodbye. I didnt get the butterflies, i...
I just don't get it.
Why is it that men don’t know how to be gentlemen until it’s to late in life?
Why can’t men just be men from the beginning? Open a girls door, open up the umbrella when it’s raining & make sure it doesn’t rain on a girl. Being a gentlemen goes past just paying for the bill because everyonce in a while it’s polite for the women to pay. It’s simple!...
Wow
You win when it comes to low blows.
Unfortunately, I have to leave you behind in 2009 too :(
No more after this one.
FUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.
mmk, bye bye. lol
It was all a lie.
I should of listened to everyone that told me to LEAVE your dumb ass. ALL of it was a lie, the fact that you ever loved me. COMPLETE bullshit. OMFG, im so fucking mad. I make myself more mad by finding out more things. But im glad i do it, because it helps me regret ever meeting you. ever letting you into my life. fucccck youuuuu ! fa’reels. im not a low, no hearted bitch. so i will not...
You're not a regret, just a mistake.
concepatrickcion:
itzmij:
(via cindyxlove)
Change of plans.
Unknown of where & how i’ll be bringing in the new year. Last year i was with the fam, this year i wanna change it up & party(: Was gonna throw one. THEN found out my father comes home that night. & will be at the place i was gonna throw the party at. SO EX-NAY THAT ONE! New plan. Just gotta find that new plan..
on another note. someone text me today.. were gonna hang out...
“Obsessing is no way to get something off your mind. Find a better distraction”
Ok ok ;
Gonna finish cleaning my room. take a shower. & go to my nanas. Then go to work & get my mind off things. BY TOMORROW, it’ll be like nothing happened(: I’ll get my hair done, & ill go about my day. I’ll go to minatos & then wednesday i’ll go to frisco. By the end of this week, when 2010 hits. It’ll be like 2009 with you never happened. It feels great...
GONE.
deleted EVERYTHING.
pictures, saved convo’s, facebook,tumblr. ALL OF IT. leaving your ass in 2009 without a care.
& you know WHY i dont care, I dont even care to find out why your mad. & if you read this & get your feelings hurt. I DONT GIVE A FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its because since day fucking one i was second. & she seems like such a nice person. i felt...
